tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-69728422810667438022024-03-13T12:59:17.816-07:00Musings of a Survivormcjmusingshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07056677413033981098noreply@blogger.comBlogger15125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6972842281066743802.post-75414465637915961172013-04-04T13:22:00.001-07:002013-04-04T13:22:12.208-07:00Giving<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="color: blue; font-size: large;">Do you feel like a fifth wheel?</span></div>
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<span style="color: blue; font-size: large;">To listen is key.</span></div>
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<span style="color: blue; font-size: large;"><em>Being there </em>for those I care about has always come very easily for me.</span></div>
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<span style="color: blue; font-size: large;">Being attentive to my patients and students is a natural part of my approach. </span></div>
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<span style="color: blue; font-size: large;">As a nurse, I am immediately <em>ready for the unexpected</em> and usually feel as though I am capable of developing a <em>ready solution</em>.</span></div>
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<span style="color: blue; font-size: large;">One of the cardinal rules of a therapeutic, healthy relationship is to help others discover (and develop) their own answers (or solutions).</span></div>
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<span style="color: blue; font-size: large;">Most of the time being present and offering a comforting ear of support is precisely all that is needed.</span></div>
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<span style="color: blue; font-size: large;">Our time and loving attention may be the greatest act of <em>giving </em>we can do for one another.</span></div>
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<em><span style="color: blue; font-size: large;">"Our strength is often composed of the weakness we're damned if we 're going to show. (Mignon McLaughlin)</span></em></div>
mcjmusingshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07056677413033981098noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6972842281066743802.post-26347222859276638912013-04-02T09:33:00.000-07:002013-04-02T09:33:03.883-07:00Friendship<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="color: blue; font-size: large;">When I was young, I collected <em>friends</em> like charms on a bracelet. Now when I look at my yearbooks, I'm fairly sure we won't be <em>keeping in touch</em>.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="color: blue; font-size: large;">Today, the true friends I have are wonders in my world. To me, with a friend, one can pick up a conversation as if no time has passed, with no judgments or excuses needed.</span></span></div>
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<span style="color: blue; font-family: Arial; font-size: large;">To have good friends, one needs to be one in return. Whether to listen, support or defend, this is a role I take very seriously.</span></div>
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mcjmusingshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07056677413033981098noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6972842281066743802.post-733366669305802702013-04-01T09:13:00.001-07:002013-04-01T09:29:35.438-07:00Endings<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="color: blue; font-size: large;">My Mom died three days before Mother's Day in 2010. I remember my last words to her were: "I love you, Mom. I'm proud of you. See you this weekend." </span></div>
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<span style="color: blue; font-size: large;">If life is a tapestry, then Mom had a rich and colorful pattern, filled with the unique and beautiful stitchery of her four children, their children, and even some of their children. </span></div>
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<span style="color: blue; font-size: large;">From my beginnings, Mom showed me how to make a difference by her example. In the end, may our lives be filled with love and pride for the legacy we leave behind. </span><br />
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<span style="color: blue; font-size: large;">In my younger days, my focus seemed more singular and driven. I knew what I wanted on a personal and professional level and acted with confidence, whether I felt it or not.</span><br />
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<span style="color: blue; font-size: large;">I have found myself in very dire situations saying: <em>"I truly wish that I could make this better for you and I am so sorry that this has happened. Can I listen for awhile? What are your thoughts?"</em></span></div>
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<span style="color: blue; font-size: large;">Time after time, when I cross the boundary of doing for instead of with someone, the end result is codependency and not compassion. </span></div>
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<span style="color: blue; font-size: large;">Today I received a student paper from a nurse who is a single Mother of a sweet little three year old girl. The paper is beautiful, written from the heart and just a little late. Considering all this woman juggles, that is no big deal. </span></div>
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<em><span style="color: blue; font-size: large;">I cannot explain how many tears I have had taking this class. It made me notice I have to focus on me and it made me realize how much resentment I have towards myself. Forgiving myself is one of the hardest things I have to do...thank you for helping me realize that. This was an AHA moment.</span></em></div>
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<span style="color: blue; font-size: large;">We are all so beautiful in our fragility, our vulnerability and our possibility. I am grateful that I was able to remind this beautiful and strong young woman of her worth.</span></div>
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<em><span style="color: blue; font-size: large;">"We delight in the beauty of the butterfly, but rarely admit the changes it has gone through to achieve that beauty." (Maya Angelou)</span></em></div>
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<span style="color: blue; font-size: large;">I just lit a candle that is scented like the beach. I am instantly calmer. </span></div>
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<span style="color: blue; font-size: large;">As I am taking slow, deep breaths...the first I have in days, I am imagining that I am walking on a secluded sandy beach, barefoot, alone with my thoughts and feeling a connection with myself.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #783f04; font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Lately it seems I've been sending more sympathy, get well and coping cards. I guess it's natural the older we get, but it sure doesn't get any easier.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #783f04; font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Many of us have lost someone close to us. Statistics show that most of us have some ongoing chronic illness or condition that causes some degree of pain. No wonder we appear to carry the weight of the world on our shoulders!</span><br />
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<span style="color: #783f04; font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">As concerned family and friends, it is a common tendency to want to rush in and fix everything. Some cultures do this much more effusively than others. Concerned parties are always so well meaning. </span><br />
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<span style="color: #783f04; font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">This is a close friend. I knew just what to say and when to drop by. We have friends you don't need to call first. These are the friends you can trust your pets with when you need to go out of town for a sick relative. I call them the "drop everything" friends.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #783f04; font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">I had an older, retired friend who was quite sick. She lived miles away in another state and enjoyed my cards. While I was not able to attend her funeral, her daughter wrote that my notes always brought a smile, especially my <em>goofy</em> stickers! I have an amazing collection that could rival any young girl's.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #783f04; font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">I attempt to write something individualized and meaningful in every card I send. I always include "thinking of you". I make an offer of help if it is realistic, finding most are comfortable letting you know when they are ready to reconnect. I have found that everyone is so different in their rate of healing and need for social interaction.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #073763; font-family: Arial;">Now, I wondered why society, in general, places self care on the back burner? Some of the reasons commonly discussed in my classroom include: family (kids, spouse, parents); work (stress from colleagues, bills, unemployment issues, time and sleep issues); health (yours, loved ones); higher education (time, tuition).</span></div>
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<span style="color: #073763; font-family: Arial;">My <em>soul </em>keeps me aligned with my purpose in the Universe. Each day I will spend time in quiet prayer, meditation and contemplation to develop self awareness and growth. </span></div>
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<span style="color: #073763; font-family: Arial;">How about you? Whether you have retired or you are working, what is your plan to "take care of yourself"?</span></div>
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<em><span style="color: #073763; font-family: Arial;">"Just the knowledge that a good book is awaiting one at the end of a long day makes that day happier." (Kathleen Norris)</span></em></div>
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</div><div align="left"><span style="background-color: white; color: #45818e;"><span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue", Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I remember telling my therapist that all I wanted was to be able to have one day when I did not think about the worst 46 hours of my life, in June, 1999. </span></span></span></span></div><br />
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<div align="left"><span style="color: #351c75; font-family: Arial; font-size: small;">For years, I handled myself fairly well, on the surface. Those in my immediate circle knew how easily I startled at any noise sounding like a gunshot. I shied away from violent movies and television shows, even the subject of violence disturbed me. Both crowded scenes and tight, enclosed spaces were avoided as much as possible.</span></div><div align="left"><br />
</div><div align="left"><span style="color: #351c75; font-family: Arial; font-size: small;">I had difficuly sleeping, experiencing frequent and intrusive nightmares. During the day, I had an aversion to anyone who remotely looked or behaved like the perpetrator. Heaven forbid, if he had the same first name! I even had difficulty driving past the expansive hospital where I worked, which, at the time was less than a mile from my home. </span></div><div align="left"><br />
</div><div align="left"><span style="color: #351c75; font-family: Arial; font-size: small;">Thankfully, these signs and symptoms of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder have, all but, subsided. I sometimes notice, when thinking of another stressor, I tend to remember the incident. I remain grateful that it has always seemed manageable in comparison! </span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: Arial; font-size: small;">I have been honored, to date, to have presented three<em> Forgiveness</em> talks to students, in a Theology elective . I speak primarily about forgiving myself in my perceived role.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: Arial; font-size: small;">When I last spoke for the Instructor in February, 2011, I was <em>asked when I was able to actually let go and forget for awhile? </em>It dawned on me, that Mom's death, a year ago today on May 7th, 2010, was the first time that I realigned my priorities into their rightful place. I was able to completely focus on my family and forget about the events that had stemmed from a madman.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: Arial; font-size: small;">My Mother's sudden death has clearly had the most profound impact of anything now in my life. So unexpected! I now appreciate that death does not send a calling card. Ironically, I remember Mom telling me she would "not have gotten over it if I hadn't made it in 1999". In some odd way, this has given<em> me </em>the strength, despite this loss, to keep going.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: Arial; font-size: small;">With Mom's death, I have finally and totally freed myself of the pain and self-imposed guilt from 1999. I know she left me words in her Journal that "my worst days were behind me and to be happy".</span><br />
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<em><span style="color: #351c75; font-family: Arial; font-size: small;">"Learn to wish that everything should come to pass exactly as it does." (Epictetus, Greece) </span> </em></div></td></tr>
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</div><span style="color: #660000; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">There is nothing like a control freak being held hostage to put <em>worrying</em> in proper perspective. Simply put, since 1999, I don't "fret much over much". </span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">At least, I try not to dwell on any one issue for too long.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Verdana;">I have always prided myself on being very organized. I think I always will be, whether about personal or professional matters. However, I used to become overly preoccupied with the importance of being <em>orderly with this organization.</em></span><br />
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">For 46 very long hours, I focused and stared at work that was yet to be done on my table, still in neat and ordered piles. At the end of the hostage seige, my desk and the table were overturned, with papers strewn everywhere. Who knows when and if those all - important matters were ever attended to? They certainly weren't by me. Yet, only hours before, they appeared to be matters of the utmost importance.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Verdana;">What a lesson! And what a way to have to learn it! But it is a lesson that I will never forget, and I sometimes take the time to remind some I care about. Life goes on. No one ever has an empty <em>in box </em>in</span> <span style="color: #660000; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">the game of life.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Verdana;">And, today, almost 12 years later, I will honestly always fret about a little something. It seems to be an inherent part of my hyper-vigilant nature.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Verdana;">But, now, I tend to view worrying as more of little red lights along the highway of life. Worry <em>has </em>the ability to stop us in our tracks but should never last for very long. At least, I will not allow it to in my life.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Verdana;">This does not, however, translate to careless, hasty or insensitive behavior. <em>Sleeping on it </em>is a prudent strategy that has saved me from many an ill-thought decision.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Verdana;">Weighing all options in a non-reactive manner is key. Asking several objective people for their opinion is also smart, not necessarily commiting to anything.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Verdana;">It is really healthy to recognize when you are on overload. You may have <em>way too much in your glass. And this latest worry is causing a great spill! And it is <strong>YOU </strong>that needs to be mopped off the floor!</em></span><br />
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Verdana;">Of course, at these times, it is impossible to really listen to even the best of advice, even your own! You need to take some time to heal. Only you know how long you need and how often.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Verdana;">I have a dear friend who told me about her <em>worry bucket.</em> When she has had enough, she puts all her cares in a <em>mental worry bucket. </em>Only she has the power to decide when to worry and when the <em>bucket</em> needs to be emptied.</span><br />
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<ul><li><span style="color: #660000; font-family: Verdana;">It might be after a walk with your dog.</span></li>
<li><span style="color: #660000; font-family: Verdana;">It might be after a nice soak in the tub.</span></li>
<li><span style="color: #660000; font-family: Verdana;">It might be after you have dirty hands from gardening or weeding.</span></li>
<li><span style="color: #660000; font-family: Verdana;">Or you may decide you can put off the worying for awhile...</span></li>
</ul><span style="color: #660000; font-family: Verdana;">Some days we are barraged with the sadness of life, especially when those we love have so many awful things happening to them all around us. In no way, is this meant to minimize any of our inner angst.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Verdana;">Yet, in my darkest days, to focus on the simplest positive act, behavior or detail on this glorious Earth, including the inspirational people I have met along the way, greatly eases any worry over things I cannot control.</span><br />
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<em><span style="color: #660000; font-family: Verdana;">"Now I think my point is that I have learned to live with it all... with being old... whatever happens... all of it." (Edelgard)</span></em><br />
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</div><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">This life lesson is one of those kinds that "is easier said than done". Nevertheless, we really need to try to honor this one. Otherwise, it can be quite maddening.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">For years, you see, I suffered with the "guilt of a survivor". To be redundant, this is actually coined "survivor's guilt". I survived "six" gunshot wounds, and an innocent woman died after "one fatal" shot to the head.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Why? How? So many other detailed questions and none can actually be answered. I had so many that to relay them here, I'm afraid your head would actually spin. All in all, it took me many years and much soul searching to realize that I never pulled the trigger. I never killed anyone. For years, though, it sure felt as though I had. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Although I am generally open about my experiences if it is for the healing or education of others, I am extremely confidential when others share examples~~ both personally and professionally. This was strongly reinforced by my Mother and professionally by the ethics and confidentiality involved in the field of Nursing.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">In almost 30 years of adult experience and practice, the theme of universality, despite gender, culture, age and other socioeconomic factors can be quite remarkable. I find this to be especially true in the tendency we have to want to "take ownership for everything".</span><br />
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<ul><li><span style="font-family: Verdana;">One of my clients, was newly diagnosed with diabetes. He had been watching his diet, had joined a fitness center, and had already been taking oral hypoglycemics, diabetes medications, for a couple years. However, he was still told at his last physical that he had to start taking insulin and monitoring his blood sugar daily with a glucometer<strong>. "What have I done wrong?"</strong><em> In actuality, the client has and continues to do everything right; yet, there is a strong family history of diabetes. With the same attention to good health practices and the addition of insulin, he has "owned his role" and is doing very well.</em></span></li>
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<ul><li><span style="font-family: Verdana;">One of my friends told me that she was "let go" from a position where she had established a beautiful rapport with a young boy with a learning disability. This was something no one else had been able to do. The reason, in all honesty, boiled down to maternal threat. Yet the <em>given</em> reason was totally unrelated. In the end, my friend is bereft; and the young boy misses the support.<em> </em><strong>"What have I done wrong?" </strong><em>Honestly, the reason given, if pursued, was discriminatory. My friend has, thankfully, moved on to other work. She sadly </em><em>owned her role, which was caring for her charge. This is one of many instances, with different circumstances, where employers treat their employees in a most deplorable manner. At times, the person is unjustly terminated in the end. Could this be, in part, due to our tumultuous ecomomic times?</em></span></li>
</ul><span style="font-family: Verdana;">No matter how long or how difficult the task, we need to tease out our accountability for and the amount of control we have in coping with these heart-wrenching situations. All the while, we need to remember to <em>own our role </em>and to allow others to own theirs. </span><br />
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<em><span style="font-family: Verdana;">"You are a child of the Universe, no less than the moon and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the Universe is unfolding as it should." (Max Erhrmann)</span></em>mcjmusingshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07056677413033981098noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6972842281066743802.post-55182896612334624832011-04-10T13:09:00.000-07:002011-05-03T11:35:14.653-07:00Give Yourself Time<table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
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</div><div align="left"><span style="color: purple; font-family: "Helvetica Neue", Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I just paid my respects to a lovely older woman whose husband of 64 years had died. They had married when she was 24 years young. Having been married almost 24 years myself, it is hard to fathom saying good bye to your soulmate of more than twice that many years. My friend felt even worse because she, herself, had been at the doctor's, as she had not been feeling well. Some even wondered if he had chosen this time to die, so she would not be there to worry even further. Instead, his son was by his side at the hospital. </span></div><div align="left"><br />
</div><div align="left"><span style="color: purple; font-family: Arial;">While he had been suffering with multiple medical conditions for the last couple years and had actually been transferred to hospice care over the last month, no one in the family was ready for his death, least alone his beloved wife. She was lost, sitting in tears. She still wore her nightgown and robe in the middle of the day. She had a distant look in her eyes as well wishers brought casseroles and desserts, no doubt, more for their comfort than hers.</span></div><div align="left"><br />
</div><div align="left"><span style="color: purple; font-family: Arial;">Luckily for her, beloved children will handle the necessary details around her that must be tended to. I always remembered the family members and businesses that were gentle with me at times of trauma and loss.</span></div><div align="left"><br />
</div><div align="left"><span style="color: purple; font-family: Arial;">Conversely, there were some unfeeling business companies that ignored communications and common decency. This made grieving so much more painful. My way of dealing with this was to channel my unresolved anger into letters of shame where I reminded others of the <em>Golden Rule.</em> This sometimes resulted in a letter of apology, but always made me able to move on from the issue, as forever resolved.</span></div><div align="left"><br />
</div><div align="left"><span style="color: purple; font-family: Arial;">I realized that nothing could return my former life or loved one. I am forever blessed to have the gifts and strengths that I have learned through these experiences and wonderful people. I have the ability to share these lessons with others in the good work I do each and every day that I am fortunate enough to be alive. </span></div><div align="left"><br />
</div><div align="left"><span style="color: purple; font-family: Arial;">This was not readily apparent to me through my times of suffering and grief. As such, I am eternally grateful for time and the perspective it brings. No one could tell me how long the process of healing or recovery will take. Every situation for every person is as unique as they are. I know these matters may not be rushed by the time constraints of others, whether family, friends or co-workers. And I know that, just when you think you have all your grieving behind you, the smallest reminder or trigger will surface. <em>Wham,</em> you are reminded all over again! But I have found it always gets at least a little better with time, in <em>your own due time, in your own way! </em></span><br />
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<em><span style="color: purple; font-family: Arial;">"Remember, Ginger Rogers did everything Fred Astaire did, but she did it backwards and in high heels." (Faith Whittlesey)</span></em></div>mcjmusingshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07056677413033981098noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6972842281066743802.post-10706379881888381402011-04-02T14:04:00.000-07:002011-05-03T11:37:14.763-07:00Rise Above It<table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
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<span style="color: #274e13; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I wasn't quite prepared for the hospital environment I entered as a brand new graduate nurse. I was only 21 years old, not at all ready for the psychiatric diagnoses and the staff personalities I was about to encounter. It was fairly easy to get me to blush furiously or burst into tears, sometimes within the space of five minutes. </span><br />
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<span style="color: #274e13; font-family: Arial;">A <em>terror</em> of a nurse, named Jeanette, took me "under her claw". I grew to both fear and respect her simultaneously. One of her first lessons to me, no matter what the circumstance, was <em>to rise above it! </em> In my early years, I remembered this mantra as I learned and gained confidence in dealing with all types of staff and patient behaviors.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #274e13; font-family: Arial;">Through the years, as I was promoted into educational and managerial positions, Jeanette, who always remained an excellent Charge Nurse, would respectfully remind me to <em>rise above it</em>, when she was in a Union capacity or at a Committee meeting. Many of us sadly attended her funeral in the mid-90s, shortly after her retirement on medical disability. She had left a large void at the hospital. This nurse was all grumpy on the outside but ever so soft on the inside. She taught so many of us from her heart.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #274e13; font-family: Arial;">Little did Jeanette know that her words would be my mantra during the darkest 46 hours of my life, when a colleague and I were held at gunpoint by man who could not be reasoned with. I knew that I could not speak or I would be shot again. He was way too volatile. The only choice I had was to keep telling myself to <em>rise above it.</em> </span><br />
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<span style="color: #274e13; font-family: Arial;">I thought <em>it</em> when I was angry. I thought <em>it</em> when I was frightened. I thought <em>it</em> when I was outraged. I thought <em>it</em> when I wanted to say something and knew I could not. I thought <em>it</em> when I felt like crying. I thought <em>it</em> when I felt like screaming and cursing. And I thought about other strong women in heaven like my mother - in - law, Arlene, Lillie and Clem and how they would all be helping me <em>rise above it.</em> </span><br />
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<span style="color: #274e13; font-family: Arial;">Our thoughts are more powerful than we realize. Only we have control over them. I know there were other variables at play that resulted in my ultimate survival in 1999. However, I stand firm that positive thinking throughout the ordeal helped me keep my inner strength and resolve to survive remarkable odds.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #274e13; font-family: Arial;">As such, I haven't given up on Jeanette's mantra. I really don't care if it is the speedy roadster that cut me off on the way to work or the gentleman at the Mall who slams the door in my face as he is rushing to enter. It is probably best to <em>rise above it. </em> If I thought awhile about it, the offending party probably has something very heavy on their mind or could just be rude. It certainly, however, isn't worth ruining any part of my day because of it. I can hear my wise Mom saying "<em>just chalk it up to experience." </em></span><br />
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<span style="color: #274e13; font-family: Arial;">Come to think of it, Mom and Jeanette were "cut from the same cloth". Even today, I can feel these wise women helping me, as they taught the truest of life's lessons. Most of the things in life that really offend us are so minor in the grand scheme of things. Isn't it better to think about how much effort you want to put into reacting to these petty grievances? </span><br />
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<em><span style="color: #274e13; font-family: Arial;">"When I am all hassled about something, I always stop and ask myself what difference it will make in the evolution of the human species in the next ten million years, and that question always helps me to get back my perspective." (Anne Wilson Schaef)</span></em>mcjmusingshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07056677413033981098noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6972842281066743802.post-7660880084127527882011-03-24T18:53:00.000-07:002011-05-03T11:39:02.881-07:00Look up to the Sky<table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
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<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: Georgia;">Ever since the tragic event of June, 1999, I try to look up into the sky at least once during the day and during the night. You see, for the longest 46 hours of my life, I was held at gunpoint at work, along with a beloved colleague. When all was said and done, my friend was</span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: Georgia;">killed before my eyes; and I had been shot six times.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: Georgia;">Now, almost 12 years later, I have learned so many lessons in my recovery. Many of these lessons have been taught by people I have since worked with, who have been through their own traumatic experiences. It is indeed humbling to witness the power of the human spirit.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: Georgia;">I do not believe I ever appreciated the simple value of light, fresh air and the freedom to enjoy this, until it was taken away from me for those long and lonely hours. I remember almost gulping the fresh air in the few seconds that it took for the Trauma Team to transport me on a gurney from the scene to the chopper, like a drink of water to a parched man in a desert.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: Georgia;">And today, when <em>I look up</em>, I am reminded of the beauty of my life and how grateful I am to be alive, despite my many imperfections, as I had come so close to the face of death. I am reminded of how small I am in the grandeur of this whole world. I know that, even if <em>my</em> problems cannot be solved, that life will go on one way or another. I have both loved and lost some very special people in my life. I am forever grateful at my wonderful memories of them that can never be taken away.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: Georgia;"><em>Looking up</em> helps me be a little less hard on myself and others. It reminds me of all that is good and worthy. It makes me so very glad that I have another day to try again.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: Georgia;">I can only wish for you the very same. I know that sometimes it can seem as though there is no end in sight to the problems in life we must endure. I also know there are not always easy answers. Sometimes it just helps to know that others "somewhere out there" understand <em>when we are looking up into the heavens. </em>This continues to bring me immeasurable comfort along life's way. </span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: Georgia;"><em>"Be glad of life because it gives you the chance to love and to work and to play and to look up at the stars..." (Henry Van Dyke)</em></span>mcjmusingshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07056677413033981098noreply@blogger.com0